...what are you scared of...
"Why are you scared?"
"Because people are going to see the real me"
"Why is that scary?"
"Because I am a nerd in the truest sense of the word. I am clumsy and I never know the right thing to say and I'm awkward and I think too much and I'm really not as put together as I appear to be"
"So what? What's the worst that will happen?"
"People will see the real me..."
"Exactly...people will see the real you and your light will actually shine. You will be able to get past the fear of being seen and accept your purpose in life and rise to the occasion. You will be able to show your gifts and talents to the world and be the person you were always meant to be!"
I had this conversation with myself everyday until I believed it. I felt really stupid the first few times I did it, but after about a week, it started to ease my anxiety and I began to really take steps to get my life and my business in order. It's hard to start from a place of self doubt and fear, but the only way to truly live in your purpose and light is to work through your fears and face them head on. You are meant for more and your dreams are completely attainable, the only thing in your way is you. Inject yourself with a little self confidence everyday and you will be fine. This is coming from someone who was so crippled by anxiety that it took me almost an entire year to climb out from under the expectations of others. I was living my dream in theory but not in practice and it was sucking the life out of me. But I was just too afraid to move forward. Until I made the decision to trust myself and trust the universe and get my shit together so I could live my dreams in practice as well as in theory.
I made the commitment to unpack all my baggage and work through all my fear so that I could move forward and reach my goals. I started by eliminating as much negativity as possible from my life. Then I began trying to put a positive spin on any negative situations that were left. Finally I took some quiet reflective time for myself so that I could take inventory of my feelings and figure out which ones were valid and which ones were fueled by anxiety and paranoia. After about 30 days of life detox, I was clear headed and ready to work. Stay tuned to see the rest of my journey unfold.